Contrubuting to the Word

You know I ask myself that everyday I mean I live on your tax dollars because I have a brain injury and can't work. I got really depressed when I asked myself this at first. Why because I had hopes and dreams my dream wasn't to get multiple brain injuries and live off your tax dollars. What did I want to do. I wanted to own my own porn company. Yeah I said it I wanted my own porn company. There's perks about it. You get to go places fuck someone and get paid for doing so. Now I don't know about you all but for me that sounds like an awesome stress free life to me its a hell of a lot better thing than living off your tax dollars•. The funny thing is that was one small part of owning a porn company. The other part sucks. You have to deal with legal bullshit you have to have good marketing and ideas to keep your company going since most shit you can get for free and there's TONS of pay sites out there is to compete with. Then there's the health side making sure proformers were negative of HIV interviewing the talent booking travel making sure everyone is legal etc. Its a lot of fucking work just for that 2 percent perk of traveling to cool places and fucking and getting paid for it. so. Then your asking yourself how would you be contributing to the world with porn. Well a lot see I worked behind scenes. I did interviews with the talent arranged travel set up cameras and lighting to even cleaning toys. I did it all and loved it. But interviewing talent was my favorite and I was able to contribute that way. Why because a lot of these guys are undercover gay for pay and everything in between. And sadly none of these guys knew anything of safe sex STDs HIV etc. Plus some guys did porn because they were curious about being with a guy and they can't do it at home. Which I don't get because I wouldn't want my first time with a guy on film but whatever. So I was able to contribute by educating these guys on safe sex I was able to teach them things about STDs and HIV and I was able to let someone explore who they are by setting them up with a guy for the first time even if it was on film who am I to judge. So I know it doesn't seem like much but think about it I did a lot maybe even saved a life. By teaching these guys about STDs and safe sex I could of prevented them from getting something in the future. Same thing with the guys that want to discover themselves first off they probley wouldn't of done it safe and they started to discover who they are. So doing my dream of owning a porn company would of contributed quite a bit to the world. Then I got my brain injury it went away. Am I upset ill admit it yes I am. But then what if in this part of my life I'm not ment to do so and maybe my porn days where I contributed to the world is over and I did my purpose. So now I have a new way of contributing even if I'm living on your tax dollars. Say it was just pushing someone to achieve their goals such as being a doctor and they found a cure for cancer. Maybe is bring awareness to brain injuries maybe its just to make people laugh to get them through their day So they can find the cure for cancer. Do I know what it is No I don't maybe it will come to me later in anyways I'm still contributing in some way shape or from. Maybe not with money but in other ways that's ment for me to do right now. It just took my brain injury to allow me to do whatever it is. I guess what I'm saying is you can be doing your part in the world now but it can change at anytime So if something stops you from doing your dream you can always do something else that has purpose in the world that were ment to be done now and that's your new dream. But whatever that change is could also bring you to your life's dream after all its just a matter of completing the task god gave you to do for this current moment. Because I don't think my dream of owning a porn company is over its just put on hold until I complete this task. And if. I don't own a porn company that's cool to I just died knowing I contributed to the world in all aspects in life. Knowing it wasn't ment to be