The future sucessful or a failure

So like most people out there I think a lot about the future. One thing I've noticed is not what most people think actually happens. Take my life for example as a kid I thought I'd graduate high school go to college get a nice job and have a family. Then instead I decided to do porn well that's a career and it was nice just not planned until the day. I decided to smoke a whole bunch of weed get on a computer and in me being higher than I am now I decided to do porn. Ill do another blog on that its an interesting story. Anyways then I moved to pittsburgh met kevin and moved down to Maryland to be with him (to make a long story short) then we've been together ever since. To have a steady job I decided to work at The GAP and be with kevin then quitting going to American Eagle outfitters then Back to The GAP then to Lucky Brand Jeans then back to working at The GAP until my brain injuries caused me not being able to work. That totally wasn't in my plans as far as a career goes. I went to GAP so many times because it was my comfort zone as I was trying to figure out things career wise. Then you take kevin his goal was to move up the ladder in his company that didn't work for his future because of how fucked up his company was. So he worked at The Gap that was short lived where he took another job at a store in the industry he was in before. Wanting to move up the ladder being a district manager for the company and higher. Come to find out it changed his mind and wanted to do better for himself So he decided to go back to school and be a teacher. The plan was when we left FL that we would find a way to move back down there. Since we don't want to stay in Washington DC forever. But as things changed such as the education system state budgets in FL and different laws. We decided moving back to FL is most likely the worst thing we could do since its very fucked up there. So Kevin wanting to be a teacher we could go pretty much anywhere. So we both liked Los Angles. So we decided we would make plans to move there. So we started doing research on hospitals for me apartments in Long Beach and also Los Angles. We found that its much cheaper to live in the LA area compared to the Washington DC area so that was a plus. The weather we would never have to see snow again. And Los Angles Public Schools actually pay well much more than Washington DC so with the higher pay and cheaper cost of living it would be better Especially since I would have access to Medical Marijuana for health that it would be perfect and that was our future. Well guess what as we started making plans we said fuck that. Because California is broke they are doing budget cuts out the ass and then to get licensed to become a teacher is a whole another fucked up thing. So again we said fuck that. So now we are planning to move to Las Vegas. Why well here soon Las Vegas is going to be going through a population growth where new schools will be built in Clark County meaning new teachers will be needed. So we did research and found that it takes sometime and class work to be able to teach in Nevada. But its also easy degree wise and cost of living is cheap there so kevin can get a job at one of the casinos on the Las Vegas Strip. So we looked at jobs at all of the casinos like the MGM Grand the Golden Nugget the Palms hotel and resort and found there's tons of jobs kevin could do. So that was a plus. I can have access to Medical Marijuana legally. As far as relocating and finding a place its the easiest thing to do. We looked at taxes and the sales tax is a little higher than most places but cheaper than Washington DC of course. But we found perks like not paying income tax in Nevada. The other plus for us moving to Las Vegas we found they are trying to make that area a research area for medical shit and currently there are Brain Injury treatment places in Las Vegas that medicaid out there will cover that medicaid here in Washington DC won't cover. So we found a place that seems will work out for us. That's our new future not moving to FL. We would still want to be its not going to be the case. Does that mean we failed at planning for the future and we are failures. No people change and things change everyday. Its just a matter of going with the flow and changing things as your life happens. Because I found for myself that if I would of stayed on the same plans for the future nothing would of worked. But if I made plans for the future as life changes things will always work out to where they need to be and are. So looking back if I ask myself if I thought I'm a failure because my future plans didn't come true and I couldn't pursue them. I say no because I have future plans that are bigger and better than before because I was able to roll with life and make changes in my future as life changed. Sure bigger and better may not be my career and its not living in a city like Las Vegas. But my bigger and better plans now is to get treatment for my brain injuries be able to live life better with the right treatment. Kevin being able to live is new dream of teaching while making a difference in the world. Somewhere and somehow. So just remember you may make a million changes to your future but your not a failure because your first plans didn't work out for you.ë